okay, start from kak sheila's wedding nad dah mula pakai shawl macam hana tajima tu, mula mula memang tak jadi, memang messy, tapi dari hari ke hari, skill tu macam dah improve sedikit lah, yelah practice makes perfect kan kan ? dari dulu lagi nad teringin nak pakai shawl macam ni, but i am a girl with no self confidents, mesti ada je kata hati cakap yang 'you are not suitable to style like this or that' 'you will look uglier when you try this style' and banyak lagi, kadang kadang i am too shame of myself sampai takut nak tengok cermin, maybe ada yang perasan, bila dekat sekolah atau mana mana, nad akan elak dari tengok muka sendiri dekat cermin, macam mana, tengok cermin tu sekilas pandang je or tunduk daripada tengok cermin tu, pernah jugak nad menangis depan cermin, okay maybe im being too honest here, kalau korang rasa macam mengarut je takyah baca this blog okay ? i just wanna share it, continue, nad tenung cermin lama lama, bila rasa tak puas hati, nad akan menangis, i dont know why, yeah im lack of self confidence, sampai sekarang nad macam tu, but now im trying to boost my confidence, no one know about this even my parents
i do have this one kind of friends yang akan tegur semua benda buruk yang ada pada nad, bila dia tegur something, nad iyakan saja, maybe nad terlalu baik untuk tegur balik dia or maybe nad accept the faith that everything about me is not as good as hers, okay she is one of my best friends, sorry, and maybe because she is my best friend i dont want to hurt her, yeah let me be the one who will accept all the bad comments, nad bukan nak buruk burukkan name die dekat sini okay, im not even write her name here, i just wanna her to change, think about people's feelings, nad amat benci bila nad dengar apa yang dia luahkan perasaan dia from sod to happy things tapi dia amat menunjukkan dia tak berminat bila nad luahkan apa apa, it feels like 'oh am i talk to myself all this time?' it feels stupid !
itu mungkin sebahagian dari punca kenapa nad kurang self confidence, without my best friends, my life lagi terumbang ambing, macam mane nad bile masuk university nanti? without best friends ! can i cope in that situation ? ergghhh god please help me !
continue with Hana Tajima thingy, ahahhaha, she adorable right, im so addicted with the tutorials of how to wear shawl like Hana Tajima on Youtube, dia dah banyak menjadi inspirasi kepada muslimah muslimah di luar sana, termasuk nad sendiri, may Allah bless her, i love her style, from hijab , tops or bottoms, love them, i wanna be like her someday, a girl who can inspire other people, insyallah, maybe kalau bukan dari segi fashion, mungkin boleh dari segi architecture or interior designer, insyaallah, wanna fulfill my dreams, okay so then i will post her style which inspired me the most
she's pretty right? she's a modern muslimah who inspired other teenagers like me
they are my inspiration to be a trendy and modern muslimah, yuna and hana, thank you so much
